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i want to fucking die
i hate my life
so fucking much
im contemplating whether or not to kill myself
it seems like the only way out
awkward moment when i havnt updated in like 2 months and lost 14 followers
heh...
People Magazine: Extreme dieting! 500 calories a day!
Me:
Me:
Me:
Me: That's more than I eat in a week...
i think i might kill myself omg every single day i am just getting fatter and fatter its like a never ending vicious cycle of failure
breakfast: 0
lunch: 0
just now i had 2 chocolate chip cookies, 100 cals each
only ate them so my friends wouldnt think i was a freak.
time to go run 4 miles
i need to reach 100 or lower by May 18, so for motivation i will be posting my stats and intakes everyday.
Also inbox me tips and tricks.
thanks
xoxo
every waking minute of everyday, all i can think about is how goddam FAT i am
i am such a failure
i just want to die
but
since i cant
ill punish myself
by not eating
on thing
nothing
today in class this attention whore was talking to her loser friends about why she keeps a key on her necklace. So she can go to the bathroom and cut her thighs when she gets mad in science. Her exact words “yeah, i like go ask the teacher if i can go to the bathroom and then i sit in there and just cut the shit outta my thighs.”
ARE YOU JOKING NO YOU DONT. YOUR STUPID SHUT THE FUCK UP.
you dont even understand how mad that made me. i was literally about to jump up and yell at her. My god.
today at lunch (and pretty much almost everyday)
Me (jokingly): Wow, you literally just ate that whole pizza in under 4 minutes.
Friend (rantingly): YOU CANT JUDGE PEOPLE N HOW MUCH THEY EAT WE NEVER JUDGE YOU AND YOU NEVER EAT A THING. SO JUST GO BUY SOME CHIPS AND EAT. EAT. YOU LIKE STARVE YOURSELF EVERY DAY SO YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO CRITICIZE OTHERS ON WHAT THEY EAT.
im setting rules for myself so i wont be fat in a month
starting tomorrow:
2-4-6-8 diet
while on the
2-4-6-8 diet
i will be limiting/not eating
-processed froods
-fried things
-baked things
-chocolate
-CARBSCARBSCARBSCARBS.
and i will only try to eat
-metabolism boosting foods
-fat burning foods
-fruits
-veggies
yeah..
